Coming To A Close
So, my time is winding down here in Presque Isle. If you had asked me at the beginning of the semester what I thought about that, I would have said I was looking forward to it. But, now I am dreading it. Why is it that it takes me so long to connect with people in new places? I've been here now for almost 7 months and I'm just now making new friends here and hanging out with people? Why am I so shy until I'm comfortable around people? The same thing happened on my student teaching too. I was over halfway through before I started really connecting with people. Now, I have to leave. After I'm just making some new friends who are really great and a lot of fun to hang out with. Why is it that 2 of my really great friends are moving here to do internship now, after I am leaving? Now, I wish I could stay here, even just for the summer.Home feels like taking a step back. When I started college, I never saw myself moving back home after I was through. Especially not after 5 years of school. I want to start life! To start a new adventure! A new adventure that doesn't include Fredericton where my total number of friends equals 3, and one of them is under the age of 2!! A new adventure that doesn't include a home church where people ask you if you are new and the ones you do know barely speak to you. I feel as if I am ready to move somewhere and settle for at least a few years. I'm tired of moving and having to make new friends and then moving and having to make more new friends. I'm tired of finally connecting and feeling a part of something and then having to leave.
Well, classes finish in 7 days, exams are in 12, and graduation is in 15 days. And my life as I know it, living on my own, making my own decisions, and going where I want whenever I want comes to an end. "Lord, I will Praise You even when things aren't going as I had planned. And thank You Lord for never leaving me to figure things out on my own. Thank You that You're always there."
"When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer." ~Psalm 94:19
"For I know the plans I have for you, 'says the Lord.' They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." ~Jeremiah 29:11
"Praise the Lord; praise God our savior! For each day he carries us in his arms." ~Psalm 68:19
"'My thoughts are completely different from yours.' says the Lord. 'And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.'" ~Isaiah 55:8-9
Praise You In This Stormby Casting Crowns
I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen," and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
Chorus
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
Chorus
posted by His Beloved @ 10:44 p.m.
1 Comments:
Hey Amy,
I just stumbled upon your blog. I know we haven't really talked in a while, but when I read this I was thinking the same thing as Amy O., that would could hang out this summer. Even if I am a bit younger. I could always use some more friends. I remember that when I first started going to the youth group, you were the only person that really talked to me.
Hope to see you this summer.
Kara
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