Mid-Winter Blahs!!!
I'm feeling those crappy mid-winter blahs! Coming back to PI today after having winter break this past week was soooooo very much not what I wanted to do. After spending the week partly at home and partly traveling back and forth to Bangor for the girls Quarter-Final and Semi-Final basketball games, it took all I had in me to get back in the car and direct it towards Presque Isle. I am beginning to really loathe this place. 6 months of living by myself is really starting to wear on me. Not to mention that I just don't feel like I fit here. The church is great, but it's so big and the only people I know are so busy at services that I kinda just feel lost when I go there. I also do not like my classes this semester which is not helping either. Going to the girls basketball games helped to keep me busy through January and February, but now that that's over, I don't really have anything to fill my time. I had made it my goal to spend as little amount of time here in PI as possible this semester and had been so successful up until this point. My step-grandfather is also in the hospital in Fredericton so I can't go down and stay at my grandmother's in Woodstock right now. Which means when I go down to volunteer at the Academy on Thursday's, I don't have a place to stay (or a place to stay every week) and therefore am not sure if I can afford the gas to travel back and forth there AND home every weekend.....something's gotta give and it will probably have to be home since I've made a committment to the school. Ugh......so yeah. I'm having a poopy, depressed moment and just wanted to get that out! I apologize to those of you who actually took the time to read this.....I really am not looking for your pity, just wanted someone to vent to and I feel it accomplishes more if I write it rather than simply talk to my walls! :)Does anyone else feel like they are stuck in a place where they really don't want to be? Caught between where you know you want to go and actually getting there. All I want to do is teach. I just want this school thing to be over. I wish I could move UMPI to Houlton so that I could attend church there b/c I just absolutely love that church and all of the amazing people I've become close to there. Anyway.....only 5 more weeks til April/Spring break! haha
"By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going." ~Hebrews 11:8
posted by His Beloved @ 10:11 p.m.
1 Comments:
I'm an urban kid from a warm climate stuck in the fridged waste of sussex without a car. I feel your pain. I deeply feel yout pain.
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